This weekend brought hibernation and then eruption, a huge delayering if the bonds that had been strangling my energy over the past month. The fear is got caught up in exploded into a rage of anger, frustration and sadness. I cried, I screamed and then I sat. I took a breath reminded myself the only way to get out of this was to change...change my perspective, change my voice and change from fear ...to love. The feeling of an elephant sitting on my chest dispersed and I could breathe again.
It’s so easy to get caught up in fear, it winds its way through your cells until it’s got you so tight you feel strangled energetically and physically. That fear that sparks the voices of darkness and shadow gets louder and soon it’s all you can hear. But when I vented, literally burst out of my skin and screamed IM NOT GOING BACK THERE it called to a greater voice inside me, the voice and energy of love. I then remembered I have the tools, I have the inner strength and I AM ENOUGH. The fear drew back into its cave and love spread through me like a golden light of energy and the expansion of trust and belief reminded me its all going to be ok. Sometimes you have to go to the darkest places to find the light, the last few weeks have been that, opened up by time to be still and completed by another form of stillness. Today my meditation was on love, total and utter love, on trust and belief in the universe and Mother Earth and a constant mantra of I am enough. Remember when you hit the dark places there is only one way to go and that’s towards the light, but it has to come from your change and once you change your perspective you change your direction. Each person who practices with me pays for a tree to be planted to help #motherearth #giveback #oneforone